how do you feel today...?

I realize other people making blog for money...
Don't care too much on it..i do this for intention to write..
Such an impressive to see how other people can write down their ideas about everything..
Looks like its not for me...
Write as baaad as i want....don't care who's gonna read those i wrote...
I pick this like my own diary....
so do they care? i don't care~

and for now...
Feeling like sitting on a toilet for a whole day..thinking of...
do i made a right decision as i chose this?
i knew i'm not the kind of 'very toughful heartless bravery' girl..
Too many person giving me a shoulder for me to lie on..
for months i kept on trying to forget..and move on..

after those experiences i've been through ......

afraid i Am being bullied right now...

hm..its like this...leave the past...

but i will not letting other people do that again...

I WONT

aaa ha...part time??

18th april 2011......

i'm taking leave this day...

uhh...

should be I'M taking 'resign'....
hopefully...cepatlaa job lain...
ek?betul ke ayat bi aku tadi?

chatting with my older coursemate recently in fb..
currently teaching at tuition centre...
heard her babble...'penat..penat...he..like what i felt the past'
must be tired la friend...monday till sunday working everyday...
but hey.....it worth right?
hurm......
kalau dapat keje normal hours nanti...
i wanna get back on giving tuition...
but..based on my strenght level jugak..haha...!

hurm..ape lagi ye selain tuition to make as a part timer??

Backstreet Boys - Safest Place To Hide [Guitar Version] Lyrics

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SAFEST PLACE TO HIDE....

This song has a lot of meaning for me..for years i sing it personally...

wishing that a man can sing this song for me...

hurm..

is there??

hurm...think not....

what ever it is..

wake up!

and move on...!

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Any Way The Wind Blows

Can't tell you the truth
'Least I don't lie about that
Kind of comfort in you
Comes when you lie right back

Safe from such a strange point of view
To hear your own words on you

How much do you go to be gone?
You are any way the wind blows
Any way the wind blows in

Don't wanna come down too low
Any way the wind blows
Any way the wind blows in
Any way the wind blows in

Similar creatures we are
Chasing the pipe dream down
Love elusive so far
Keeps us divided now

Go, go on and write me love songs
So I have something to sing when your gone

How much do you go to be gone?
You are any way the wind blows
Any way the wind blows in

Don't wanna come down too low
Any way the wind blows
Any way the wind blows in

Don't wanna come down
Do you know the way
To be in one place but sway?
Anyway the wind's blowin'

You are love, you are love
You are monsters and angels
Untouched, unseen

All in one, all in one
I take all that you are
'Cause you're just like me
But you move and it's hard
To stay close to a satellite

So I lose sight of you
Till you come round again
I'm watching the wind

Hey ay, hey ay, ay
Anyway the wind's blowin'

How much do you go to be gone?
You are any way the wind blows
Any way the wind blows in

Don't wanna come down too low
Any way the wind blows
Any way the wind blows in

Don't wanna come down
Do you know the way
To be in one place but stay?
Any way the wind's blowin'
Any way the wind's blowin'


**any where the wind blows......let the wind brings me..here and there....***




Read more: SARA BAREILLES - ANY WAY THE WIND BLOWS LYRICS http://www.metrolyrics.com/any-way-the-wind-blows-lyrics-sara-bareilles.html#ixzz1JPLBeAMa 
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going crazy.........

and i have the same problem again....as usual..in here i put most of everything on what i feel..

yeah...

feeling...
tension....
embarrassed...
down..........
like no one cares...........
like i'm the one who always did the very simplest same mistakes.......

like people is watching at me............
waiting for my second mistakes............................................

o allah.............

help me.......
help me emptying all those feeling...so i wont have to feel burden on me...........
help me facing these situations...so i wont have to feel afraid anymore.........

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Di saat kamu ingin melepaskan seseorang
ingatlah pada saat kamu ingin mendapatkannya

Disaat kamu mulai tidak mencintainya
ingatlah saat pertama kamu jatuh cinta padanya

Disaat kamu mulai bosan dengannya
ingatlah selalu saat terindah bersamanya

Disaat kamu ingin menduakannya
bayangkan jika dia selalu setia

Saat kamu ingin membohonginya
ingatlah disaat dia jujur padamu

Maka kamu akan merasakan erti dia untukmu
Jangan sampai disaat dia sudah tidak disisimu,
Kamu baru menyedari semua erti dirinya untukmu

Yang indah hanya sementara
Yang abadi adalah kenangan
Yang ikhlas hanya dari hati
Yang tulus hanya dari sanubari

Tidak mudah mencari yang hilang
Tidak mudah mengejar impian

Namun yg lebih susah mempertahankan yg ada
Kerana walaupun tergenggam bisa terlepas juga

Ingatlah pada pepatah,
"Jika kamu tidak memiliki apa yang kamu sukai, maka sukailah apa yang kamu miliki saat ini"

Belajar menerima apa adanya dan berpikir positif

Hidup bagaikan mimpi, seindah apapun,
begitu bangun semuanya sirna tak berbekas
Rumah mewah bagai istana, harta benda yang tak terhitung, kedudukan, dan jabatan yg luar biasa, namun..

Ketika nafas terakhir tiba, sebatang jarum pun tak bisa dibawa pergi
Sehelai benang pun tak bisa dimiliki

Apalagi yang mahu diperebutkan
Apalagi yang mahu disombongkan

Maka jalanilah hidup ini dengan keinsafan nurani
Jangan terlalu perhitungan
Jangan hanya mahu menang sendiri
Jangan suka sakiti sesama apalagi terhadap mereka yang berjasa bagi kita

Belajarlah tiada hari tanpa kasih
Selalu berlapang dada dan mengalah
Hidup ceria, bebas leluasa

Tak ada yang tak bisa di ikhlaskan
Tak ada sakit hati yang tak bisa dimaafkan
Tak ada dendam yang tak bisa terhapus.

orang kata dotdot by kata-kata orang

ORANG KATA: saya ni kalo ditelek dengan sebelah mata memang tak reti senyum..tp,bile dipandang dengan due bijik mata..maka..terpandanglah saya yg bergaye cartoon sejiban macam gambar profile facebook saya sekarang...

~eleh..saye tau dah~

ORANG KATA: saya akan segera bermuka blur sebaik sahaje bangun dari tidur..dan akan bermulalah perangai blur saya..tapi,saya rasa saya memang blur setiap masa....

alahai..

ORANG KATA: saya ni baik je muka macam ala-ala cutie nyanyi lagu-lagu nasyid tu..tapi,saya rasa saya dengar lagu-lagu nasyid dan al-quran kat ikim bile saya nak tidoq je..bersihkan jiwa di kala nak g alam separa sedar gitu..kot-kot kita tak tersedar lagi kan..tak ke naya??

masa lain??
hnnsh..
jangan tanya!!

ORANG KATA: saya ni penghibur orang..tak ada media elektronik pon bole gelak guling-guling tengok saya..
tapi,saya kata..

nasib baik ada orang-orang yang berkata-kata..kalau tidak...

saya mohon ALLAH sebagai peneman saya..

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